Coming "Out of the Closet"

Young adulthood can be a time for great realizations in life. Sometimes they are scary and sometimes so fulfilling. Suddenly we realize who we are and what we are about - finding out things about ourselves that were always there, but never recognized out of fear, or just plain ignorance. This blog serves as a true coming out for me that I hope will encourage others to be honest with themselves and do the same if it is inside of them. We all have to make sense of this world in our own ways and sometimes what makes sense, doesn't always fit with what is popular. I've never been a religious person, no matter how many religions I've studied and been facsinated with. I was raised in the Catholic Church and my grandmother on my mother's side was raised Jewish. This alone raised a question in my mind from a very young age. What is the truth? Some say that maybe it's just a phase, and maybe it is - I am only 24 years old with many years and realizations ahead of me. However, at this point in my life, I am no longer afraid to admit that I am what some would consider an Atheist. I consider myself a Humanist and a "Free Thinker". I know people will judge me because of this, but I can't be anything other than myself and I can't force my mind to get around things that don't make sense to me. My husband, Brian believes in God, but he does not judge me for my unbelief. That is what America is all about anyway, isn't it? Living in harmony with others that view the world so differently. As controversial as it is to be an unbeliever in this country, or in lots of other parts of the world, I feel that this is a part of me that I need to share with the ones that I care about. I try hard not to judge others for their ways of life and that is all that I ask for in return. Just a little acceptance and tolerance. Just the way that a person who has recognized that they are homosexual cannot hide from themselves, I can no longer hide these feelings inside of me. I like to talk about what I believe makes this world go round just the way a religious person might talk about God and their religion of choice. I know that some may find this shocking, but others probably expect this from me. This is not an attempt to make anyone question their own beliefs - just me rambling on about my own. I would welcome a miracle to come and change my mind, but in the meantime, I can only be me and hope that others understand.